Woah, a lot has happened these past couple of months. Me and Jason, are no longer together. It was a mutual thing, and has been really good for the both of us. I've had a lot of time to focus on my needs..I've read articles and things from teens who chose adoption for their babies.. and most of them all have a point in time, where they just want to find themselves again. You go through sooo many changes while being pregnant, physically and emotionally, and going through that while your teenage body is still going through changes, is just insane! Then on top of that, your going through an adoption process..after having Sawyer, i felt like a completely different person. I had went through so many emotions that i had never experienced before, i learned a lot of things, and matured. I was a different Lauren, and i didn't really know her that well yet. That's what I've been doing lately..and I've never been happier. I give a lot of credit to my friends, they've really helped me figure a lot out. And stand by my decision 100%, having a whole group of people my age, who understand and who i can go to, has made everything so much easier. I recently saw Sawyer again, and he's doing sooo great. He's the happiest little baby I've seen! Always smiling, and "talking" :). I loved looking over at Brett and Candace, and seeing them just looking at Sawyer with so much love.. that's one of the best feelings, little things like that make me so grateful that we found them :)
Awww, I love you! I am so glad you are doing so well : ) Little Sawyer has brought so much joy and happiness to all our lives. He is such a special little guy, excuse me, BIG guy! It does my heart good to know yall are doing great. I feel honered to know you both. Ill write on my blog soon too : )
ReplyDeleteI'm glad you are taking time to find yourself, and do things for yourself. That is really important, especially since you are still young. :)
ReplyDeleteYou are a wonderfully unselfish person for giving your baby a life with loving adoptive parents that you could not give him. God bless you for choosing life and not doing what some would do in your situation. We are currently adopting internationally from Russia and hoping this decision helps another child have a life of love, but if we adopt again, we may do a domestic adoption.
ReplyDeleteYou are a very wise woman! I have been following your blog, and love hearing your story. I am an adoptive mother. My son Ira is now 4 months old. I also have a very open relationship with our Birth Mother Brianna. She is a very beautiful person. I am grateful for adoption and the growth that comes from it. I have grown so much as a person. I know that Brianna has as well. She's being very strong through the hard times, and I am so proud of her. I would like to share your blog with her, if that would be ok with you. I think it would be nice for her to hear your story and to feel your strength. To know that she will find happiness again. Thanks for sharing your story! I know that it means the world to your adoptive family that you are such an open person and that they can see you are finding joy in your adoption journey. Sawyer is lucky to have you, and your love. Jammie
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