He's finally here!
Sawyer Jonus Frandsen, was born November, 9, 2009, weighing 7 pounds, an measuring 20 1/4 inches long.He was exactly what i imagined, absolutely perfect. Me an Jason had a few days with Sawyer in the hospital...those where honestly the best days of our lives, I've have never felt a love so strong for someone! He put plenty of smiles on people's faces. It brought me an Jason great comfort, seeing the love in Brett an Candace's eyes when they held him. Saying good-bye to Sawyer was difficult, but i continued to remind myself all the great things that where in store for him. Me an Jason are very content with our decision for Sawyer. Me an Jason knew if we where to keep him that Sawyer would be constantly babysat, because of us always working, all three of us would struggle...We never wanted Sawyer to ever want, or feel like a burden..we know with Brett an Candace that he will never have to deal with any of those things. Sawyer, although is only a few days old, has taught so many people so much, he's brought people closer together, an has definitely made plenty of people very very happy. He is for sure an amazing little boy, i cannot put the love i have for him into words.
While i was in the hospital, Candace gave me a little journal to write in, I've chosen to make a journal for Sawyer, I'm going to fill it up with my thoughts, an someday give it to him when he's older...here's what a wrote my first night with him in the hospital:
I have never had such an extreme feeling of being proud, until you came out into the world and i saw how perfect you where, i couldn't believe how much i loved you, i've never felt this way about anyone or anything, you are my pride an joy. I want to protect you with everything i have an make you feel better with every whimper you make. You are exactly what i imagined! I will never regret the decision we made for you. But i cannot help but miss you, we haven't said good-bye to you yet, but i know this will be terribly hard for me, because even when you have to go to the nursery for check-up's, i miss you every second your gone. I love you Sawyer, more then you could ever wrap your cute little mind around---
Sawyer my love, there will never be a day that i don't think about you...